Why I Chose to Go Back to the 9 to 5 after 7 Years of Travel
Why I chose to go back to the 9 to 5
after 7 years of travel
When I packed up my life back in the summer of 2015 to move to Berlin for a year, I had no intention of coming back to St. John’s for many years. Maybe I wouldn’t stay in Berlin – maybe I’d move elsewhere. But, with complete certainty, I knew I wouldn’t be back to Canada’s easternmost city.
Or at least, that’s what I thought.
Fast-forward 18 months later, and… I’m living two streets over from my old place in downtown St. John’s.
I was happy – very genuinely happy. It wasn’t fair that my working holiday visa was ending and that I’d have to go back to Canada. I explored other options, but in my heart I knew I had no choice. I was broke. Like, owe-the-bank-thousands-of-dollars broke. The kind of broke where I didn’t know where my next meal was coming from.
This was my own fault. I lived my year in Europe like it was my last. I went sailing in Croatia, and I walked the Camino de Santiago in Spain. I spent a week in Mallorca, and another week in Ireland. I travelled Italy for three weeks, alone. And I never, ever turned down a social invitation in Berlin.
So yeah, on a freelancer’s budget? Not smart.
The summer I returned home was one of the hardest I’ve ever had. I lived for free for months, picking up cat sitting and housesitting gigs around St. John’s, and I still couldn’t get ahead. I was even hungry. Things weren’t good.
For some reason, I thought that getting out of debt would be a great deal easier than it was. Three months later, and I had barely put a dent in my credit debt. I needed a new plan.
I started applying for dozens of jobs. Most of them were remote – in the back of my yellow day planner, I kept a list of positions that rejected me. I don’t know why. And then I came across a communications position at the St. John’s International Women’s Film Festival. I applied, and within a week, I was fully employed.
I found myself working alongside an incredible team of talented young filmmakers and artists. I was immersed in the arts scene, right where I belonged, meeting brilliant women who are passionate about their art. I made wonderful connections. I loved the work, and I actually looked forward to showing up at the office every day. All the skills I had acquired over years of freelance – interviewing, blogging, organizing – were applied to my communications position.
The Festival went off without a hitch. It’s one of those rare jobs where you can actually see all your hard work come to fruition. And when I was offered a full-time year contract, I said yes. I’d be crazy not to. Fulfilling, regularly paying work? No more chasing down clients who have owned me money for months? Goodness!
In the beginning, I worried that slowing down for a year or more meant I’d become less of a traveller. I worried what others would think of me. But after awhile I realized it was never about the number of countries I had visited, but about where the experiences led me.
We’ve made a similar declaration that we’d never again live in Southern Ontario after growing up in the area. Sometimes, though, home is home and it will always pull you back. St. John’s is a pretty great place to call home, too. A beautiful, culturally rich city. We love Newfoundland as a whole and hope to spend a whole summer (that’s only two months in Newfoundland, right?) RVing there in the near future.
You never know until you try, and I think it’s way easier to appreciate home after leaving it at least once 🙂
Very fascinating! I have been a freelancer all my life, in a line of work that allowed me to travel. I worked for the first time full time for 6 months and it was really difficult for me. Currently I go into the office two full days a week and that’s the perfect balance. Thanks for sharing!
I can so relate to this. After nearly a decade of being self-employed, I went back in-house as an editor of a magazine for two years and actually loved being back in an office environment. The downside, it paid less than freelancing, so eventually I went back, but I don’t regret those two years of giving up my freedom because it was worth it for the experiences gained and connections made.
So happy you found your place, Candice!
It’s so true that when you love your job, and people you work with, 9-5 doesn’t seem so bad. I’ve left Canada for Croatia over 10 years ago, and while I often think how, in many ways life in Canada, is simple, and easy, I’m still not ready to go back (all that snow!!!). Happy for you, though!